心里的刺怎样才可以拨开呢？

There's alot of problem happened between us, i think i had lost my trust on her...
Although now she's at Melbourne，but i think she still got sms with the Simon! chat with him and bla bla bla~
She said she still like me,but...besides like me,she still got like another person lo~
I really don't know,maybe this is what i guess..maybe not the true?
我一定要跟她问个清楚,要不然我们将来在回一起也不会长久的！应为我心里已有了一根刺！
为什么她对我有那么大的影响力呢？她弄到我很辛苦，每天都在想着她！或许我心里是没有可能放得下她的吧~


You Know Y I Love You ?


The Smell of your hair
The taste of your kiss
These are the things
That I will always miss

The sound of your voice
The feel of your hand
They affect me in ways
You could never understand

The love in your heart
The peace in your eyes
They make me feel
Like I want to cry

You are a gift
That God gave to me
And I can just feel
That we are meant to be

I'll love you forever
I hope you do too
For it's only a short while
Before we say "I do"

I hope we Got the chance to say

" I Do "

她已经不值得我去爱？？是时候放手？？

今天她在电话里讯息我，跟我说很想我！问回我有没有想她？那我当然有想她咯~
然后还叫我帮她进电话钱...说什么爸爸要用到！是个借口吧？
她说在facebook send了messag给我, 我看了....
嗨~~~~~只有她自己才知道她心里在想着谁。
我看她send的message不只是给我吧？我想信一定有send给那Simon！
她send给Simon的内容我也知道了是什么~
现在我才真正的懂，其实我.......失恋了....


                     -遗憾-
别再说是谁的错　让一切成灰
除非放下心中的负累　一切难以挽回
你总爱让往事跟随　怕过去白费
你总以为要体会人生　就要多爱几回
与其让你在我怀中枯萎　
宁愿你犯错后悔
让你飞向梦中的世界 留我独自伤悲　
与其让你在我爱中憔悴
宁愿你受伤流泪
莫非要你尝尽了苦悲　才懂真情可贵

This song its so meaningful! It very suits me in these days..Sang by  方炯镔 → 坏人情歌：遗憾  It is a nice song! =D
Read it!

想你想到好孤寂！

今天一整天都闷闷不乐的，好闷噢! 在学院的生活一路正常，没什么特别事情发生咯~可是我心里牵挂着一个人！嗨~~~不知道她现在还好吗？有没有想我呢？=P

当她去了澳洲，我以为我自己可以放下她和所有的一切烦恼和那些痛苦回忆，必自己不要想她，把自己弄到很忙就快快过了一天。可是，到头来我的心放最不开的是她...最想念的依然还是她！不知道为什么我第一次这么想念一个人，想念到好苦噢！现在的感觉就跟她那时去了柔佛一样~！
有人说这就是所谓的恋爱吧？我真的把我的真感情给投入了在她的身上了吗？当没有她在我身边的时候我很想念噢~很想讯息你，打给你可是又怕打扰到你。再加上你在外国接电话很昂贵，所以我就没讯息你也没打给你了~
毕竟我们分手的其中一个原因就是我很烦一直跟她联络。
今天真巧~刚刚跟你给了电话费你就打给我了，真有缘份啊！哈哈~ xD
我觉得很奇怪，你都没什么联络我为什么又叫我帮你近电话钱呢？难道你爸爸没有自己的电话用，要用你的？因为我还记得你还没去澳洲的前一天有一张RM30的电话卡~酱快用完了？
我的那颗怀疑的心又发作了，爱情把我弄得很想自私拥有她的全部！ =X
难道她在外国除了我还有跟其他人联络？>.<
黄俊业啊黄俊业~你一定要告诉自己你和她已经分手了，就算他跟其他男人联络也不关你的事！假如她真的跟其他人男生联络，那又怎样？（应该是我讨厌被人骗而且还是最爱的人骗叻~所以要问到底吧）=X 虽然这是小小的一件事，严格来说是与我无关的。但我也希望她不会隐瞒我会对我坦白咯，就算有跟其他人讯息或谈电话，让我知道都好别让我无思乱想！
或许真的是她爸爸用她电话吧~
我应该对她有信心！要往好方面想~要信任！
不过可以听到她那把甜蜜的声音就已足够了~虽然我们谈了就只是短短一分钟，但总比没听到她的声音好咯~ ^^

Good-Bye my Lover~

These few days i dreamt about her,in the dream flashback those sweet moment between me and her~It's so damn real! Aikss~ i miss those sweet moments.. and i miss euu~

Today is the day she's going to Melbourne,she will be there for 3 weeks vacation with family,will be back on 14-16 dec i think. =/
I miss her alot! yesterday i try to hug her before i went back,but i can feel she like dun really wan to hug me like tat,i ask her why then she replied : "i scare my tears will fall off from my eyes" haha~ 傻瓜
This is the second time she leave far away from me,but the feelings are not the same as the time she went to JB.
I can feel she really love to play rather walking in a relationship with me! Maybe in her mind play is more important than me,or maybe she didn't appreciate the relationship and what i did for her lo..

Sometimes i very envy + jealous with my bro,cuz he had a good GF~ her GF know how to appreciate what my bro did to her..i envy my bro cos his gf treat her really good,very caring and understanding~ she cook for him and buy many things to him too! And my bro asked me,did my gf do these kind of things on u? O.O"
I'm stunt in that time, I'm Speechless! I get scolded by many ppl why am i so stupid and crazy do so many things for the girl? Is it worth it? End up how the girl treated me? Did she appreciate?
Well, I really dun know how to answer them,i'm sorry to say tat,I just know i love her that's all. =X

I think she reach Melbourne edi,I hope she will enjoy her life living at there..
我希望她回来的时候就想通了和解决了我跟她之间的问题...
Waiting for your answer baby~ ;)
I viewed her facebook today,her status already change to engaged but my name is no longer appear there =( dunno why my heart started to bleed >.<
Don't know why although its kind of small tiny little stuff,but i do care about it :S

The Dress!

That day i went TS with Vickie and she had fall in love with a dress! The dress cost RM89.90.
So yesterday i decided go to Time Square to buy the dress for her as her Christmas present..
But who knows when the time i reach the shop,it already sold out! left black in colour,but she love white colour so i tried my very very best to ask all the shops in Time Square and Sg.wang! Walked in Shop to shop and ask, but end up i failed to find the exactly same design with the dress..I walked for very long time to look for the white colour dress,but i failed to get it.
I don't want her to be sad,so i bought a new dress which is also white in colour,almost the same design i hope she will like it.. =X

Night time i went to her house pass her the dress which i bought for her,cos she's going to Melbourne on Monday. I Hope she will happy to receive it.
I Miss her alot! we Quarrel yesterday night,cos she said i keep on nag her~ X_X
Sometimes she said something that really hurt deep into my heart lo..but,she's no my GF now..What can i care for her?
I have to learn how to let go...can i do it?

Happy Birthday Mummie~

Today i get a bad news from my boss,i'm going to lose my job at Brem Mall! Cos Monaza Sofa going to close! omg? So next month onwards i no need to contine work there edi~ i'm going to be poor again. T.T
Today is my Dearest Mom's 54th birthday! =D after working at Brem Mall,my bro come and fetch me to Mid Valley buy birthday cake for my mummy^^ we bought this cake from Coffee Bean. Wow this cake not cheap at all! It cos me RM102 =/

Before that,me and my bro went to Carrefour buy some snacks and then we went to Kenny Roger to have our dinner. I enjoy the moment when having dinner with my bro. Don't know why my heart started to think and worry about my girl. =(
She's busy with her friends and forget me again,i sms her but didn't reply.I angry her because she's together with the SIMON again~~~ -.-" If not mistaken that fella treated her StarBucks at Time Square. I think she really do enjoy the every moment be with him. I'm sad and angry, but who knows???

Haihz...

Yesterday i called Poh Ling~Chatted quite long with her about the blog thingy..need her help to teach me how to upload songs in my blog leh~ T_T i tot she still angry me ler..but lucky she still willing to answer my call.hehe^^
well,she still da same and never change..always also want me to close da phone 1st..haha xD
Hope she can score flying colours in her SPM lark~ ALL THE BEST TO EUU YEA! GAMBATEH~!

Today Vickie went to TS but before tat she came Brem Mall find me,so i accompany her walk to Jln Ipoh Batu 5 take bus to Monorail. She invited me to go along with her but i refuse,cos i scare like ytd abandon me! =(
I'm sure she will left me out,so i decided not to follow her lur~ =/ I don't wish to see that man walk with my dear, Am i Jealous? OMG?! I also don't know =X
I wish she can keep her promise,will change herself. Nvm i will give u time de ^^ ( but not too long~~)
Well,Next Monday (23 of nov 09) she soing to Melbourne, i called her phone just now and she told me b4 she going to Melbourne,I really cant guess the person she most wanted to see is mie~~~! haha xD I really very very happy to hear that when she say this! hehe!
No matter what,i'll come to find u tomorrow..cos b4 u going to Melbourne the person i wish to see is YOU! 我想跟你说我真的很舍不得你噢！！

I <3 You! I hope you feel my love to you! Vickie!

I just wan to let you know i really very love you!
i know both of us did many wrong things..i promise u i will change! i hope it same goes to you!
I hope u can come back to me with ur full heart! i wan to see ur eyes which can see back myself =P
But i think i wont see myself anymore,in ur eyes i think got simon or other ppl?Love really can make 1 ppl get crazy easily..she made me simply think,although she said she and simon nothing,but my feel let me know she likes him lo..cos she did everything also got the simon name appear..SIMON I HATE YOU!If u really like him edi,please let me know i will let go myself and let u 2 together,and i think if you and me TOTALLY break up edi,i think me and you wont get to be friends anymore..因为爱与恨只是一线之差! And i know ur friend "ke xin" is no a good friend! but maybe because of her u feel very nice and relax together with her,and i wan you to know,i hope u can control urself and know what u're actually doing...I already try my very very best to pull back the relation between us cos i realize myself i cant live without you..do u know that?

Today i went to TS,she seemed to be fall in love with a shirt~ it cost RM89,i plan to her for her as a chrismas gift..but i scare she will buy it after today,cos she really really wan to buy it! i think she will use up all her afford to buy the thing she likes! i scare if i buy edi,she already bought it.. =S
i saw a QUE RM299 it really attracts me to buy it up! but i'm broke..no money edi ler..haha! maybe leave it to dec? Snooker Que~ i promise i will buy u up once i have d money ^^

爱一个人真的酱难吗？

昨天我和她约了一起去JI的Old Town谈天吃东西...we chatted about the things happen between us..so the final decision that we get is BREAK UP! Each of us agree to make the decision,this decision was made is to learn and change ourself to treat our another 1 to get better and happier not like now between us. =X
After that,i sent her back to her home,that moment i feel so relax and feel so free.Just like a big stone had taken off from my heart. I finally can have good appetite to have my dinner! Haha xD maybe these days because of me and her stuff make my appetite totally lost! i ate quite alot of things,but when the time i wanted to sleep, i can't fall asleep. My mind keep thinking of her,now i realize that i really fall in love with a girl. She's really pretty and cute for me~ i can say i love her very much! But i don't really feel that she love me.. =( her mouth says love me,but the heart...i really don't know...Maybe she loves me but she don't know how to show her love to me? =/ She keep doing the things which i don't like,WHY? can any1 tell me why? 我在她的心里到底有多重要呢？难道她已经把我跟她以前的回忆给遗忘了吗？或许她的心已有其它人把我给代替了？
爱一个人不是要全心全意对待他/她的吗？Many things happen between us,she treated me like not his boy friend，when she gets angry..
HEY! i am a human too! i got feelings de leh~just like today! We went to Time Square,i really enjoy every moment together with her. Firstly we went sing K,until half way she said she wants to leave cause of her mom thingy..my mood suddenly drop down badly! I really very Dulan,but what to do? =( things solved,we walk around in TS. I saw a pair of ring which is very nice,so i decided to buy it.which cost RM40. hehe^^ who call me to lost the ring before this? xD
I really hope she will wear it,but too bad she didn't want to.
when night time,she chat with her fren all night long,abandon me alone! wah kao! that time i feel so lonely so i keep on send sms to my fren just to fill up my loneliness.
She din care about me,i asked myself am i a dog? why keep following her since she dun really love me so?
i just dun wan her to keep mix around with other boys,like that also cannot meh?!难道她不懂什么叫做避忌吗？？？？
everytime she said when go out with her fren(jimui) wont call boy..but her leh? call simon? WTF?! maybe her heart already going for simon! (although tat boy already have GF..)
but love 1 ppl is really very blind! i can do whatever thing just because of my love 1,same to her,she can do whatever things to her love's 1..
Maybe i am not her love 1? so i cant feel she got do anythings to me.
I dont like girls who talk bad words..but...haihz!~